One of these days, I’m going to find out who first said, “If it ain’t broke, don’t fix it.” Strictly speaking, it’s not like my blogging, or rather my posting habit is broken. More like, absent or sparse. In June I posted original content everyday except for Sundays, when I posted a quote. It was less hard work than I imagined it to be. But, a combination of factors* has resulted in July being a very sparse month. And I’m rather disappointed by it.
I had a pretty solid posting habit before June. But, let me start from the start. When I began in May 2014, I would post whenever I felt like it. It was a much more relaxed habit. I didn’t add pictures, I didn’t understand tagging and I didn’t have a specific time of day, or even a specific day to post. I did it when I felt like it, which is why I so thoroughly enjoyed it. This went on till the end of July, but August came and I fell from my enthusiasm. By the end of that month, to re-create that first-love magic, I drew up some blogging plans. I managed to keep most of my new goals, including the one that suggested I post twice a week, preferably on Monday and Friday. There are no specific reasons for the choice of these days, except they look rather organised and professional. Later, I added a Wednesday to it, and suddenly, I formed a habit that I kept, more or less, for a long time. Amazing!
Like most people, I find it difficult to form habits, and break them once they are formed. You see, you need a different type of psychological programming to post three 800-word essays on three specific days of the week. First of all, if you’re a blogger like me without serial or consistently themed content, you’re in for a hit-and-miss blogging situation. I did try a couple of serials – my Real Time Rambles and Throwback Thursdays. Both have done well, but the first one has sort of become therapy and the second has served its purpose for now. However, the bulk of my content is quite unrelated, and so it is difficult to come up with something new and finished in itself three times a week.
The surprising part about that is, it never gets boring. The thrice-a-week schedule is an imposition to keep me writing at all, but the lack of expectations in terms of what to write, makes me excited to make whatever random idea I get postable. And that, is what I miss. Writing random, weird things. I miss the exertion, the ability I have of surprising myself thrice a week when I am obliged to write for the world to see. I’ve even given up journaling for quite a while, a lifelong habit, so it’s been either grown-up, useful writing for me, or no writing at all. I sorely miss writing for myself, sometimes to myself.
It is a thrilling sensation for someone who has had anxiety all her life to do something she hadn’t planned or expected. It isn’t spontaneity exactly, for I do write and re-write, read and re-read my posts before I hit ‘Publish’, but I like the ability it has to surprise me. Had I not been obligated to put it down, I would not have known I had that thought, that expression inside me. It probably doesn’t mean anything to you, Reader. You’re in only for the spectacle, you don’t have to think about what it means to the writer, unless you want to. As long as it means something to you, the writer should consider her job accomplished. But, often it is the other way around, especially with this hit-and-miss blog, and its hit-and-miss writer. It always has to mean something to her, and it sometimes does not mean anything to the reader. But, she hopes to be spared the waste of 5 minutes of your life on her account and, as WordPress would lately have her believe, it’s only 3.
I don’t know if you anticipate my posts. I am sure some of you must, for you so often leave ‘likes’ to encourage me to keep up. I could conduct some sort of a poll or oblige you to leave a comment to say if reading Of Opinions is a habit for you, and if so, in what way, but I am going to let it be for now. The focus should be on getting back to a writing habit myself, so that I can come up with, hopefully, more interesting stuff in the future.
*My eyes are much better now, if you remember my post from last week talking about it. That, and writing ‘Of Opinions – the book’ have been the main reasons for the scarcity.
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